Today is the 1st day of October. I question whether the beginning of a new month should compel me to start something new. Maybe a new habit, or the letting go of a habit or bad thought processes. There are so many things I hate about me, but they are always things that I do, rather than intrinsic traits. I can so easily get myself into bad habits, but I can so easily act like everything is ok. While this can be detrimental to coping, it can be a great thing when you need to keep your bizzare and dangerous thoughts to yourself.