Another hospital trip today for the usual transfusion. The upside is it does eventually make me feel better but the down side is it often leaves me with a headache like no other and a decent temperature that makes my skin burn. It's interesting being at the hospital in the day clinic with the same patients that I see every 4 weeks. Same place, same time and often the same conversation about how lucky we all are. No one seems to dwell on the fact that we all have some nasty disease. Diseases that leave us in different states of physical discomfort and pain. Some of them, like myself, live in a constant state of feeling just 'ok'. Some of them are acutely ill and we know they will only be on the ward with us for a matter of months. They will either die or they will go into remission. The rest of us will continue to see each other every 4 weeks and tell each other how fortunate we are, despite the pain, the tears and the fear that it may never get any better.