There's a buzzing in my ear. Like there's a little bug flying around but the buzzing sounds like a siren. It started with a thumping sound and for a moment I thought there was music coming from next door. But no, it's in my head, bursting out of my ear. Today was not a good day, but it wasn't horrendous either. I slept a bit during the day. I thought I wouldn't fall asleep, but I lay my head down for moment and then I woke 2 hours later. I'm so exhausted. I wish the doctor would just give me another iron transfusion. It always makes me feel more energetic within a week. I hate being anaemic, I constantly feel like I just can't get enough sleep or my legs feel so heavy it's an effort to put one foot in front of the other when I walk. Tomorrow will be good day. The day is all set out and I don't have to think about anything. I simply have to just go from one place to another and do what's requested. Some days my head is just too foggy to actually think about what I might or could do. Some days I just need to be told what to do. If the day is too free, sometimes it hurts my head to think about what I could, would or should do. It sends all these little thoughts spinning around in and then I just don't know which thought it good or bad and whether it's a real thought or not. So many thoughts are strange and distant but other thoughts feel incredibly mundane and it would be so easy just to follow through on those thoughts. But I know I'll end up so bored, I'll get so bored that then my head will fill with grandiose thoughts that I think will make me happy.