One more day with yet another red cross to my name. The thoughts are all still there and I acted on them. I keep telling myself it's not worth it and I should just push the thoughts out of my mind and concentrate on something else. Oh, if only it were that easy! Today I feel quite productive and I'm not letting deeper thoughts penetrate into the brain. That way I can concentrate on the mundane stuff of everyday. But when my body is is going through the motions of mundane activities, that's when the madness can seem like a wonderful thing.