Tonight I felt that sense of doom. It hit me out of the blue. Perhaps I'm missing something, somebody, some sort of feeling of not really being here. It sometimes suprises me to look in the mirror. Sometimes the person I see in the mirror doesn't match what I think I am really like. Sometimes seeing a photo of myself makes me think somebody has been superimposed over the top of the picture and I struggle with trying to reconcile the girl in the photo and the girl in my mind. But alas that doesn't account for the sudden and overwhelming feeling that floods my body with fear and an acute sense of impending doom. I try and try to pretend it's not there or distract myself with seemingly meaningful things. It works for about 3 seconds and then the horrible sensation floods my body again. Perhaps it's time to sleep and hopefully wake up to a better time and place.