Yesterday brought about another episode of such inense feeling makes if feel like the world around me has ceased.  When I'm in that moment I'm unsure whether the world has actually fallen away from me or if I have been carried to an entirely different place where I'm totally protected. Only people in the know can see inside my head and read the thoughts that are spinning around in there. It's like the rest of the world doesn't even realise I'm there, they can't even see me.  I wonder if this is what it feel like to be no longer alive.  I'm walking around with me mind swirling and my body is almost floating and I'm sure that no one can see me.  If they did see me they would surely realise I'm mad. But when I have these moments that are intense, and I'm alone, I feel completely connected to myself and to the people in my head.