I wonder how different the world would be if nobody could think beyond a single moment. Beyond a desire for immediate satisfaction. Would we eventually learn to try and visulise the future. I don't like it when peope cannot think beyond what is in front of them, superficial scenes, like sets from a play. There is nothing behind the facade, everything is one dimensional with no depth and hence no substance. If there is no substance how could one possibly feel anything that gets to the core of who they are. I want to feel like there is so much more beyond my tiny existence. I don't mean more in the sense of bigger, better and far reaching. I mean beyond the scope of anything I could ever imagine, something that explodes into your mind to force you to consider how amazingly deep and complicated the mind is.

Today I was so intrigued to hear and know that there are people who think the same way. People who seem to understand that there is more to life than just getting through the day on a practical level. I met people who have the same desire as me to feel the most extreme and intense emotions possible. When I say 'possible' it gives it a beginning and an end, yet that is not what I want to portray. Despite how happy one has felt and how low one has felt, I don't believe that means there is a definitive scale with a beginning and an end. The scale one works on today may change in time. Perhaps the more one thinks, the more one explores and discovers in the world, then the beginning and the end of the scale will change over time. I don't want the scale to stay the same. If it stayed the same it probably means I'm not expanding my world. No one should ever limit their capacity to feel.