Every now and then in my life I feel what is probably a deep sense of displacement and uneasiness. Caught out. A fraud, or rather a freak, who somehow landed in the wrong life. Actually not the wrong life, but the wrong world. I want a world without a sense of order, no rules that simply serve to preserve employment. In my idealist world there would be no need for 'jobs'. People would simply do things because they needed to be done. We wouldn't need food or medicine. My world would be based around satisfying and exploring the deep deep burrows of the brain, and how we think. I hate having to be practical, it only serves to make people more and more numb. When you hear a song that brings incredibly emotional feelings flooding back, well that's how I want my whole world to be. I hate the mundaneness, it sends me even more mad than I already am. Let me lie back and feel like I'm free falling with music throbbing through my veins and heart, sending deep emotions swirling around around my body. In my world everyone would feel that, everyone would look at each other with such intensity there would be an incredible connection between every human being. The only problem one might encounter is that rage and jealousy and as equally strong emotions as is love.