While I try to focus on something everything peripheral seems to spin. Still have a shocker headache but hoping my body will adjust to this. I painted today. When I paint I feel so much in my own space. It's quite cathartic. I don't know where I got to today but I came home feeling quite ok, no lurching in my stomach of despair or anxiety. Day 5 and I think I've done it. Thought about it, but then actually forgot about it!